I partnered with Kelli from Little Jelli in a Big World. You can check out my post over at her blog and here's hers!
Thinking back on 2010, my first thought is how thankful I am for all that I have in my life. 2010 brought the birth of my second daughter, which in and of itself is a perfect gift and miracle. Avery completed our family – rounding us out as a sweet little family of four...but with Avery came a total lifestyle change for me (the Momma) that I didn’t get with just being a parent of one. You see, when you have one kid, you can still carry on a fraction of your “old”, pre-kid lifestyle.. but with two (at least for me) everything changed.
With one child, I could still slip out on Friday nights to spend some girl time or browse my favorite blogs while she quietly played at my feet. But with two children, it seems that I am constantly cleaning up after someone, holding somebody, running errands, doing laundry... you get the picture. And somewhere along the way I lost ME. I lost my passions; my desire to be organized and completely in control of myself; my ability to always be one step ahead of my work ( I teach high school English) and my home (I am a clean-freak). I love to read and am a self-proclaimed video game nerd and I also love to walk and be outside. I am not over-the-top into my clothes or body, but I used to take some pride in looking and feeling good about myself. These days, I cannot remember the last book I read, or the last time I sat and played a computer game or watched a good old cheesy Lifetime movie. I never just sit and relax without my mind racing on what needs to be done. My classroom is the same way- I feel like I am treading water with grading papers and lesson plans.. and that I just can never get ahead. I never get to spend time browsing the sale racks at my favorite clothing stores.. I never go to the library and rent a book; hell, I don’t even get to listen to my own music in my car for the love!
So that’s what I want to do for 2011- take more time for ME. Find myself again. Because when I think back on who I was before I had my beautiful girls.. I was pretty cool and pretty self-satisfied. Don’t get me wrong, I am a very happy lady, but just not a WHOLE person- like a part of my soul is dormant. So my goal is to remember ME- be a little selfish- and get back to being the chic I used to be... which in turn will make me a better wife and mother- cause if your inner-soul is at peace, so can your life be.
Thanks Kelli! Best of luck in 2011!
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