October 25, 2018

It's A Girl!!!

Two weeks ago, The Pilot and I welcomed our sweet baby girl, Aurora Olivia, into the world and I couldn't be more in love.


We've been thinking about and planning for these early weeks with a baby for so long and now that we're finally experiencing it, we've jumped right in. We're learning to respond to her cues and what different cries mean, what she needs when, and even getting her on a very loose schedule (eat, play, sleep). For the first week, we didn't have any visitors - I wanted that time for us to figure out our new family and I don't regret that decision for a second. Although, now that my mom is here, I'm so grateful for the extra help!

I thought I'd write this post to share a little bit about how we're doing and answer some of the most common questions I've gotten since bringing Aurora home!


How am I doing? Postpartum recovery has been tough. I thought I managed my expectations well but two weeks postpartum, I still can't go up or down stairs without pain and I still can't get in or out of bed while holding Aurora. I've graduated from being mostly bedridden to being able to get up and about the house. We've left the house quite a bit but it's always a struggle. I didn't expect to still feel like this two weeks postpartum without major complications or a c-section but here we are. I didn't have any complications but it took 27 hours of active labor with almost 5 hours of pushing to bring her into the world and that isn't easy to recover from. I honestly thought I'd be back to walking Peyton within a week of coming home and thought that timeline might even seem generous. I'm listening to my body but I really want to be able to just go outside and take a walk. I talked to my midwife about it and she said that I could still be feeling like this for another week or two which is a little disappointing so I'm just doing what I can to try to heal.

Did we really not know what we were having? Yup! It was a total surprise and the absolute best moment when, right after she was born, The Pilot said, "It's a girl!" I never really had a feeling one way or another through my pregnancy. I wouldn't really let myself have a strong feeling one way or the other. The night before I found out I was pregnant, I had a dream that I had a boy. Right around the start of my third trimester, I had a dream that I was having a girl. We had already picked out names for both a boy and a girl and two weeks before she was born, I was driving and got cut off by a truck with the name Aurora written across the back and then I really started wondering if she might be a girl. 

How did we choose her name? The Pilot and I had a really hard time thinking of baby names. It was really important to me that our baby's name could easily be said by my Spanish speaking family. I didn't feel like the name had to be Spanish but it needed to be easily translatable and that was tough. The Pilot came home one day and asked how I felt about Aurora. He had just heard the name somewhere and liked it but what he didn't know was that Aurora was my great grandmother's name, is my grandmother's middle name, and my aunt's middle name! And that was it! I've always liked the name Olivia so we chose it as her middle name.

How is Peyton handling a baby in the house? Peyton doesn't think she's allowed near Aurora. It's pretty adorable. She gets pretty close to her but won't come too close even when we try to get her to, which isn't necessarily a bad thing. Every time The Pilot takes her out, she comes back in and runs to the bassinet to check on Aurora. It's adorable. She definitely doesn't mind having a baby in the house though. When she wakes up in the middle of the night, Peyton runs to her bassinet and lays down underneath it. It's super cute. 

So that's it! We have a baby and I have to say, it's pretty great!

October 1, 2018

38 Week "Bumpdate" + Maternity Photos!

I'm going to have a baby this month. 


It feels weird to type that out but at the same time, it feels so right and I definitely feel ready.

I haven't written much about my pregnancy on this blog. 


Ok, I haven't written much about anything this blog lately but here we are, in the home stretch and I thought it was time to write something!

At 38 weeks, this little one could make their appearance any time this month. At one of my very first appointments, my midwife made it very clear that I could have our baby any time between 37 and 42 weeks. Honestly, I think this is the best thing anyone has told me. I've been prepared that baby could come "any day now" for the last week but I also know that I could still be pregnant for 4 more weeks. Yes, I'm tired. Yes, I'm uncomfortable but knowing that the whole concept of a due date is arbitrary is really putting me in a good headspace to just be prepared and take things one day at a time. 

I really wanted to love being pregnant but the road to getting here was too bumpy and my first 20 weeks were really hard. I found out I was pregnant at just 3 weeks and started getting sick almost immediately. I was throwing up 5-6 times a day and couldn't eat anything. With my history of loss, this terrified me. I was trying so hard to just take things one day at a time and not be scared of this pregnancy but not being able to eat made it hard. When I finally stopped being sick at around 14 weeks, I didn't have the energy for anything. I kept hearing about how magical the second trimester was but I felt awful. After a diagnosis of low iron and adding in a supplement, I finally started feeling better around 20 weeks and have felt really good right up until the last week or so when I've just started feeling tired and uncomfortable as I've come to full term. 


I've tried to stay active, walking almost every day and going to prenatal yoga every week. I haven't run my entire pregnancy and I desperately miss it. During my first trimester, I was honestly too scared to run. I know that running is safe during pregnancy but with my history, I couldn't bring myself to start running. Not to mention how sick I was. To be honest, I lived in a little bit of a bubble during the first five months of my pregnancy. By the time I finally felt like I could start running, I was already too big and uncomfortable. I tried easing into a walk/run routine but ultimately, I stuck to walking. I know that it will take a while before I'm able to run postpartum and I hope I'm not too lofty in dreaming of a fall marathon next year but I'm pretty good about managing my expectations and plan to take it slow and see what I'm able to do. 


One thing I wasn't prepared for was how real the nesting instinct would be. We moved into our house just a few weeks before I found out I was pregnant and because I got so sick so soon, there were a lot of things that needed to get done around the house that were left undone for a long time. I didn't unpack the last moving box until about a month ago! Before I could even think about the nursery, I had this desperate need to get the living room gallery wall up, the pantry repainted and organized, my office completely done, all of the outlet covers in the house replaced (they had been painted over by the previous owners), the laundry room redone, and a whole host of other projects. Surprisingly, I got through all of them and the nursery is finished (save a hole in the ceiling that appeared over the weekend!) and I'm ready to just take it easy and wait to bring home our little one. 


It's crazy to think that exactly one year ago, I was reeling from a second miscarriage and didn't think I ever wanted to get pregnant again. It was too scary and too painful and it took a lot for me to be in a place where I could think about getting pregnant again. We haven't even met our baby yet but I'm so glad I didn't give up. This journey is one that I wouldn't wish on anyone - it is cruel and painful and unbelievably lonely - but I survived it and I hope that there is a lesson in here somewhere that I can carry with me as I welcome our baby into this world. 

Thanks for reading.

September 28, 2018

Reading Lately: September Edition

Last month, I shared some of the top books I've read this year. I had been in a pretty bad reading rut and, while those books were my favorite reads of the year, there really weren't many others I've read but lately, I can't stop reading. The Pilot keeps commenting that he's never seen me go through books so fast. This definitely isn't a bad thing. Once I finally put my bookshelves together, I started going through them, reading books that I've had for months or even years without ever picking up. I've made a pretty good dent in that pile but I'm starting to get antsy for another library trip. I don't know what it is about the library but I love browsing the shelves and coming home with a stack of books! 

Here's a look at what I've read this month:

"Us Against You" by Fredrik Backman - I've said this every time I've finished a Backman book - if you haven't started reading Fredrik Backman, RUN to your nearest bookstore and pick up everything he's written. You will not be disappointed. This sequel to "Beartown" surprised me in the sense that I didn't really feel like "Beartown" needed a sequel but I'm so glad we got one. I liked this "Us Against You" even more than "Beartown" and I really like how Backman gave some of the characters more of a story and shared what happened in the aftermath of what shook up the town. I don't think this book can stand alone so definitely read "Beartown" first. 


"A Moveable Feast" by Ernest Hemingway - I feel like every time I tried to read a classic book or author, I'm disappointed. In some ways, I liked that this book felt like I was having coffee in Paris listening to Hemingway's musings about his friends - Picasso, Gloria Steinham, Scott Fitzgerald - and in other ways, I felt like this was just the musings of someone talking about their day and was bored through most of the book.

"My Not So Perfect Life" by Sophie Kinsella - This is definitely not the type of book I would normally ever read but my sister gave it to me and I really enjoyed it. It reminded me of being 20 and broke and living in London, trying to make the most of a job that was both exciting and would make my head spin. In "My Not So Perfect Life," Katie Brenner is trying to do all of those things until she loses her job and ends up moving back home to help her parents run the glamping site they've started when her old boss shows up as a guest. A comedy of errors and a very light, easy read, this one was cute. 

"The Yonahlossee Riding Camp for Girls" by Anton DiSclafani - I had had this book on my reading list for years and finally cracked it open...only to be really disappointed. You know from the book's description that 15-year-old Thea Atwell has been sent away in the midst of a family tragedy that may or may not have been caused by her. 300 pages dragged on constantly referring to the "mistake" or the "secret" before you finally find out what it was and, well, it was pretty anti-climactic. This was a huge disappointment. 

Somehow, even in the middle of reading all of the baby books, I'm finally making a dent in my reading challenge! Even though I'm still 9 books behind schedule, I'm determined to hit my goal this year!

What have you been reading lately? Are you a Fredrik Backman fan? Have you started reading his books yet? If not, I highly recommend starting with "My Grandmother Asked Me to Tell You She's Sorry." I loved that story and definitely want to read it again while I'm on maternity leave!


As always, happy reading!
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